“Tae Seongjae... He’s the one who will take me back home.”
One day, without warning, I woke up as Seo Seungwon, a character in a BL novel given to me by my younger sister.
The aftermath of being transported into this world is brutal—I’m plagued with relentless nosebleeds, bouts of coughing up blood, and unimaginable pain. I discover that staying calm lessens the torment, so I desperately try to empty my mind and maintain my composure. But as my original memories start slipping away day by day, I spiral into despair.
Still, I refuse to lose hope. To escape this nightmare and return to reality, I set my sights on the novel’s ending. Following the story’s flow, I resolve to become Tae Seongjae’s lover, face abandonment, and eventually fake my own death—all to achieve my goal of going home.
But when I meet Tae Seongjae earlier than expected, everything starts to veer off course.
**Original Novel:**
[RIDI](https://ridibooks.com/books/2336003137), [Bomtoon](https://www.bomtoon.com/detail/depression), [MrBlue](https://www.mrblue.com/novel/E000111500), [Bookcube](https://www.bookcube.com/detail.asp?series_num=923024808)
[Original Webtoon](https://www.lezhin.com/ko/comic/gloomy_delusion)
**Official Translations:**
[English](https://www.lezhinus.com/en/comic/gloomy), [French](https://www.lezhinfr.com/detail/bt_1111088), [German](https://www.lezhinde.com/detail/dbd_00398), [Spanish](https://www.lezhin.es/detail/ilusion-melancolica), [T.Chinese](https://www.bomtoon.tw/detail/depression_), [Japanese](https://www.beltoon.jp/detail/gloomy_delusion)
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##### NOTE: This series is a global release meaning official translations come out the same day as the original.